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Today I started off cranky. Real bad. I wanted to beat some nigguh up in my math class. I was way too tired tho. Man. Then I had 4 shots of espresso before work. That made me somewhat happier and hyper. It didn't last very long though. Even though I talked to Julie and Romil about how much I should take and they only recommended 2 or 3 shots. I guess I must've been really tired. It was bittersweet that I was off earlier than usually because of the slowness of the day. Hmmm. Then I went home for a bit. Chillaxed. Aljed wanted to work out so I met him up at 24fitness. Got a really good work out. He couldn't keep up with me with my ab work outs haha! We talked about clubbin' and girls. Haha, not pretty girls. Ugly girls ;] Thaaas wsup. My day started to get better. Good work out. Good talk. Then! I would of never have thought that Ashley would hit me up. The Go Go Dancer that I met last night at the club. We were texting for a bit.. Then she asked how old I was. Ugh.. GAME OVER -___- She hasn't texted me back yet. I went to Cali for about an hour after that. I thought that Cali would cheer me up. Boooooy.. WAS I DEAD WRONG? It just made me feel even worse about myself. I'm not gonna go through details because apparently I need to work on my big ass mouth, through MY perspective. Make sure you read the "my" part. The "my" part is indicating that NO ONE BUT MYSELF lead to the conclusion that I HAVE A BIG MOUTH. Oh and by the way, I feel miserable. I'm dead tired. I can't sleep because there are drunk 50 and up year olds downstairs trying to sing karaoke.. And sometimes those fools would chant or something. I don't know? Yeah. Past few days of "fun".. Hmm I shouldn't of relaxed so damn much. This is what happens. I'm playing catch up. I'm letting east coast down. I feel like a loser because I got rejected for being too young. I'm a big mouth. Hmm the list goes on doesn't it. It's funny too because earlier I was gonna write about how I'm so inspired to do something. How, even though I'm at a young age, I can achieve so much. I've achieved so much as of right now, BUT I'm miserable. K, I'm gonna try.. to.. sleep.. I don't know how.. but I will.. somehow.. No wait. I'm gonna sleep in my van. I think that's a better option. Goodnight fuckers.