2010

Today.. No, actually the last couple of days I've been pretty productive. Grindin' and doin something positive with life. I organized my room. Edited-ish an episode for Perennial Vision. Still am, but I'm taking a break because I got editor's block. Heh. If you give a nigguh respect they should always give back respect. That's how adults do it, and I abide by that. I'm not one to disrespect people intentionally because that's immature and selfish. But there is an exception if they disrespected me first. It's a new year. So far 2009 has been good to me. 2009 had let me grown so much, I would not of believed that I am what I am unless I've gone through it myself. I know I've usually been the immature one, but I think that's what's so funny. I didn't intentionally change myself, I just grew according to life's far fetched plan. I've gained the deepest respect to myself, and everyone around me. I realize that even though negativity comes into your life, positivity always tends to show itself again. I'm content right now, yet I still want more. It's because I'm young that I'm content but it's the same reason that I want more. I've been having this feeling inside of me through out the year.. Something big or some big things will happen. I'm not going to say soon because I'm not sure when it will really happen, I just know I've got this drive to go beyond. Yeah, I'm talking all positive right now but I do have my negative mindset sometimes also. It's a constant battle in my head. But I choose positivity over negativity. It's a simple task, but difficult to process. I look around me and one of my motivations is to get out. There are friendly faces all around, that's good, but I really don't know anyone. Essential I really think I have five close friends. I don't have to try to rekindle things nor do I have to chose to leave out information about myself to them. When we talk, truth comes out and I trust they do the same with no doubt. I like that. I told you, life is simple. The process behind it is difficult. Everyone else, you're cool too. If you're reading this and are wondering if you're one of the five, think to yourself, "Would I trust my everything [secrets, money, family, relationship, and myself] to Raymond?" If the answer is yes without hesitation then you're one of them. If you doubted even just for that second, it's all good. We're still friends. That's if you want to be friends. Back to respect though. Once my respect for you has been tarnished, I have no problem walking away from your life. I've done it before and I'm starting to get better at it. It's not like it's a game or anything I'm just sayin'. How does everything tie in altogether? 2010 is going to be about friends, family, respect, and growth.