bet big

Today I've been sleeping 24/7. Okay, I lied. It's more like 18/7? I'm sick as shit right now. Letting go of things is often for the best. When I finally get out, I have two years to learn how to let go. I plan on moving on in life. I have two years to enjoy and that's it. I think going to New York will do me some good anyways. It'll help me grow and it'll test me. Why do I choose a path like this? Because it's actually different. I know a man that's been different all his life, yet looked up to, by many. He's always doing something amazing. I look up to him. This path is hard, I know. This path isn't cheap either, I know. See, I'm an attention hog. Everyone that reads this blog knows that. I love attention. I think slipping away from everyone's attention and only giving myself my own attention will benefit me a lot. Letting go of my past, letting go of unecessary baggage, letting go of those nigguhs, letting go of my old self is for the better. I'm talking a bit strange right now but you'll see through my examples. It's a Ride or Die kinda shit. I either Ride to the top, or Die trying. Sort of. One thing is, I'm a gambler. The bigger the stakes, the more chills I get. Life is always a gamble, so why not bet big. Y'feel? Haha, enough deep talk. I'll ttyl. Laaaate.