another re-assessing

Today I bsed my first college essay. Not a good way to start my day. It's okay. I think it's time to re asses myself again. I don't remember when I last did, but I'm pretty sure I did in this blog. Soooooooo here we go. Right now I'm still on my grind. My state of mind have slowly been changing. I'm working and staying on a wide path. I really can't say true answer when people ask me what I want to do. I just say I wanna make commercials and music videos to make it easier. In reality, I feel like I'm headed to a bigger path. We'll see though. I just want to thank the people that have been supporting me. I'm still nothing. I really am. I do have a sort of direction. That's what I feel is holding me up. This direction is actually keeping me from being that lazy. I'm still lazy guys. I'm just naturally like that. I have to force myself to do things. I have to work with my passion to get somewhere. Without my passion I'd still be chillen. My one fear of the moment is losing my passion, losing my growth, and losing my work ethics. That'd really suck. So there's only one choice though right? Don't lose. Win :] I'm grateful for all the opportunities that have come crossing my path. Thank you so much. I'm thankful for all the infulential people in my life. I'm thankful for the people that are giving me chances. I'm thankful for the roof over my head. I'm thankful for my passion in life. I'm thankful for the wonderful people that I'm surrounded by. I'm thankful for everthing good or bad, it's built me up to be what I am at this very moment. I feel that I've grown so much since I got out. Ask someone, I think they'd say that too. I know I still have so much to learn, experience, and live. I'm ready to accept everything coming my way. I like to live everyday thinking about tomorrow, working on today, and reminscing but never reliving the past. Inspritation is everywhere you guys. It really is. All you need is to just open your senses. Feel it. Think it. Breathe it. Live it. Yeah. Hahaha. Life is weird. I try not to be negative. Most of the time I'm positive and passive about things. Negative only causes me to worry. I have too much shit on my mind to have worriness to occupy it, sooooo thanks but no thanks :] Like I said, life is weird. The journey a person takes through their own life can never imitate another's. So just live it up because no one will experience anything you do but yourself. Your own life is too special to be copied. Alright, I gotta head to class and if I save this to be re done late, I won't do it. So I'll stop here. One last thing, smile. I think it'd be nice everyone smiled. Not those creepy super smiles. But one of those natural ones. Yeah, those natural smiles are nice. Arright then yall. Laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaate.