Happy 100 Post :]

There once was a little boy... He was insecure. He was fat. He was shy around girls. He was naive. Through out the years I, myself, has seen me grow to be the young man I am today. I remember when I was a Freshman coming to Independence High School I was scared of how big it was and if I might get beat up. I was heart broken because my last ex had broken up with me. I also had no clue who to hang out with. Oh and did I mention my wardrobe consisted of XXL clothing. Yes, XXL. High School did have its ups and downs. I'll admit I did cry a few times. I also smiled a million times than I did cry. This was one of the greatest learning experiences that I have ever had in my life. I've grown to be proud of myself as of now. I have confidence. I work out. I have a job. I'm slowly working towards my dream. I'm proud of how much I've grown. I'm proud of who I am. Haha, did I mention my wardrobe is a size M now? I'm also glad I didn't fall into the traps that highschool set out. I'm on route to do some great things right now. I'm working for this company, it's okay but I'm learning a lot. Remember how I'm lazy? Well I use a freakin' planner to schedule things, that way I don't forget also. Basically I'm getting my time-management together. I'm also getting my filming together. I just invested in a Macbook Pro. I know a plethora of people have been purchasing Macs lately but this isn't the same deal as me. I've been dreaming of getting one of these beauties for quite awhile. I knew I wanted to film and this is the perfect piece of machinery for me. I've been dreaming of this for years. I done a bunch of research on this Macbook Pro. I'm also starting to film a documentary on a band called "So Timeless" [<--click the link to peep them out]. This is my first documentary. I'm sure I could experience and network a lot with this project of mine. I think I'm growing up now. Doing my own thing. Not followin' the crowd. It's what it takes to be successful. I just want to let you know that everyone that I've met my whole entire life has made an impact on me, whether the deal was negative or positive. I still grew no matter what. I had my down times. Since this is going to be one of my deepest blogs, lemme share something to you. I know that whoever reads this is reading because they care about me so I think I can share. Awhile back I had some thoughts that could endanger myself in. I almost gave up on myself. I knew had a few choices to make. Turn out like my brother, turn to the grave, turn to the couch, or turn around and go up the fucking hill. I'm glad I made the choice that I did made. My mom and my brother inspire me quite a lot. I love the support that those that love me give. The one thing about me is that I love challenges. And when someone talks shit, I get even more into it. That's my fuel right there. Through out the years most of my teachers loved/hated me because of my laziness yet I hard an inner genius in me that didn't need to pay attention or do homework to pass the classes with usually a B. They always told me to stop being lazy and then I could make something of myself. At that time I didn't mind. Working harder than I wanted to wasn't my thing. I didn't want to become a nerd or anything. Now I think is the time to do it. Maybe I could change the world. Maybe I could people. Maybe I could change. Who knows? I find it amazing sometimes when I look at other people's situations in life and I'm pretty impressed. Now I look at my life and what I've done. What I've been through. Where I came from. Who gave me the opportunities to do the things that I do. I'm amazed at me. You have to love yourself first before you do anything and as of know I'm giving myself that love and attention that I greatly needed. I'm not paying attention at those that doesn't care anymore. Haha, I've changed so much. In a good way. This what my light-skinned black brother said, "You've changed but I guess you changed for the good because you don't make me want to smack you in the mouth like some of the people in your class" Yeah some people have grown to be a bit off top, some have grown to go on the top, and some just don't reach the top. Yet. Also did I mention I never had a girlfriend in highschool? As sociable as I am, I'm still super picky and I still do have some walls. It's okay, it's alright to be picky. It let's you make the right decision sometimes. The right choices makes progression. I guess it's time to go out to the streets, ride the progression cab, and head to my destination. My later post will be my progressions of life, some deep thoughts and the things that I love. Thanks for reading my thoughts whoever you are :]

PS I might edit or add stuff to this post later on. Happy 100 post!