Sunday, March 16, 2008
gone going
Today was a chill day. Nothin too hectic was going on. So, I have a problem. Actually I have a few problems but here's one of them. First of all, I don't want to seem greedy or anything but yeah.. So my mom's brother, my uncle, and his family are moving here to America! The thing is, they're staying at our house for AWHILE. At first my brother offered his room to them but my mom declined because his room is super nasty. The guest room is currently occupied to my uncles from New York because there going to be here for AWHILE also, while there mansion gets built in the Philippines and the bank accepts there payment or whatever to there other house here in California. So now the only room left is my room. Yes, MY room. My room is going to host a family of four. It's pretty small but I think they can all fit comfortably. The problem is, now I have to sleep in my parents room in the meantime. This is probably going to be 2-3months. I don't mean to come out to be selfish but this super sucks. I'm not going to be able to sleep in MY own room during my Birthday [04-25]. I'm probably not going to be able to use the computer that much. I have to go and get my clothes from MY room every weekend and prepare for my outfits for the whole week. With so much people in the house now, I'm barely going to have privacy now. [Not in a dirty way] I just want my space sometimes ya'feel? I know that I shouldn't be greedy and selfish like this, because this was how I started off living in America. I started out living in one room with the whole family when we first came here. I should be grateful that I do have a room of my own. I should be grateful that I do own the stuff that I own. I should be very grateful for the way of life that I'm living. I should feel happy for them that they are now finally coming to America and are going to live the American dream.. But I don't. I feel selfish. Y'know, I feel bad because I feel so selfish about this situation. Because I have all these grateful happenings I should also share my "whatever I have" to people in need also. I mean don't get me wrong, I WILL DO IT. It's just I have a bit of resentment while doing it. This sucks I have to sleep in my parents room, on the floor and shiet. I'd rather sleep on the couch but my dad won't allow it. So another of my problems is my confusion. I can't really say it here because it's kinda too personal. All I have to say is that I'm stumped. I dunno what to do about it and I'm scared of the out come of if I just let the car roll. I've seen this happen before but it's somehow different from thte rest. This one is a big stumper now. Yeah, emo-much? Ha! I feel so selfish, greedy, disappointed, confused and sad.
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2 comments:
aw poor baby.
AWW soo kawawa. I'll let you borrow my aerobed! HAHA =)
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